It’s not just about where you are
But who you share it with.
Ksenia
Okay. Here you are. I am using this app again. First I am writing in Microsoft word just because it is easier to see how many words are written. I do not know what to write on five hundreds words today but I will try. So in four months my life will be completely changed. I will graduate and will start working. One more step, one more level. Life can be compared with radio. Just imagine you are listening to a nice song on a radio, but it is about to end,you can not stop it or make it play one more time. It will finish and it will give a way to a new song, or a weather forecast, whatsoever. The same with life, unfortunately we can not stop a moment or make it appear one more time. It’s so sad that when I was a child I was dreaming of becoming older, was impatient. But here is now, and Its high time to respect present and plan future. To put it down to let your mind on a paper. Future is a thing that becomes an enemy to a dreamer but a friend to a person who has a detailed plan. What is the different between the person who can write a novel and a person who can not do that? The second one don not belive in himself. He has doubts. There are two things which a person of successful future should have – self-confidence and a plan. How to get self-confidence? It comes from achievements we earned. These are achievements that every person decides for himself. And we have some expectations about ourselves. If they fail we lose points of self-confidence. Why they can lose? When we are not honest with our inner world. When we listen music which we don not like, when we do things we do not do, when we feel sad but try to hide or anger, fear or stuff like this. Or when we tell ourselves go to sleep at 10 and do not follow your own rules. Its important to trust and be honest. I do not want to lie to anyone. To myself first and foremost. I am hungry. I can not eat anything. Today I spend good time with Julia. I feel so good with her. She knows a lot about me and I know a lot about her. But there is one thing that I do not like. She is ready to tell me everything that her friends have told her. She can not keep secrets. But her stories are interesting. It is like reading a story from the third person narrator. But I felt awkward listening to them just because these people do not know that I know smth about them that is not fair. I am writing now without reading it again or checking the spelling just because the reason of this writing is not to prepare smth for publishing but just let the mind fly and become easy again. I am so happy with you James. Really enjoy time together. You are so gentle. Knowing you even more and more gives me a high respect for you. And now it is time for dreaming and relaxing. Thank you darling. I am grateful for being healthy, for a good weather for comfortable clothes and a good friend. I am ready for opening to you and show you all my fears and dreams. I am so grateful for you James. See you tomorrow. I will not read it again ahah it should be as it should be. And there are six hundred words already. Writing it is more fun that I expected. Am looking forward to see what you will write. And I still should write smth. Today during my journey by bus it was snowing. I was looking through the window and was thinking about African people who have never seen snow. What would they think? Would they be scared? First people appeared in Africa what made them go to the northern part of the Earth? Lets stop for today. It is better to wake up early tomorrow. Seven hundred words is pretty enough for the first day. Good night sweetie! (03.02.2020)
James
Hello Diary. Hello Ksenia,
This is an interesting idea to share diary entries. In honestly, I was a little comprehensive at first but I can now see how this can have a very positive impact in how I think. I think this can help me practise transparency, where things can be seen as they are and not how they should be. I say transparency in this way because several weeks ago, I listened to an interview/article where a CEO was mentioned on how he ran his company in complete transparency, and for him to do this, he had to be open and honest with himself.
Why? Because running a company with everything being recorded, filed, and reviewed isn’t the easiest or most popular option large company can choose in their business plan.
What will I find in this? I don’t know but I got a positive tingling in my toes!
Will this change the way I will think about myself? Probably, and I welcome this with a big hug!
On the other hand, I had no idea what I can write, maybe a little afraid that I will find my fingers running faster than my thoughts but having a little bit of motivations has made me feel like I’m going the right way! In the past, the journals that I had to kept were all case notes, on how I felt about patients and the practitioner treating them and on how I felt about them. Random journals can be found with me writing more random thoughts of descriptions of how people moved across a train platform, or just simple words like work, work, and work.
When I was told to write what came into my mind, I’ve always found it difficult, just because my mind can sometimes run faster than my fingers or faster than the ink coming out of my pen. I read somewhere that we have around 50,000 to 70,000 thoughts in our minds everyday. Everyday! Imagine if we could put that into a computer and then find the useful stuff! Although the age of computer chipped minds sound daunting, it will never be in in this centenary, let alone my own lifetime!
Anyway, that’s getting off topic. In this first post, I hadn’t expected to write so much in such a short space of time! This is a lot more fun than I had expected!
Journal writing is a part of my past and recently, I have found it hard to let go of who I am to become someone new. It wasn’t all too clear for me but I had a confirmation of this when you sat in my study and noticed something I hadn’t seen before. Everything in my study had traces of Chinese medicine and Acupuncture. I thought the files, notes, and everything to do with those 4 years of my life that I place out of sight was enough but now that the dots have been connected together, I can see how I have been struggling. So thank you my darling. I am grateful to have you in my life, your high standards and great achievements show me that anything can be done, only if you put your mind and heart into it. I am also grateful for this fitness watch, my parents, good tea and a warm home.
500 words can go so quickly and I feel the urge to write more but I know that this is the best time to stop and save the energy for tomorrow’s entry. Good night darling! And good morning if you end up reading this in the morning 😉 (03/02/2020)
Ksenia
hello diary, good evening James!
What should i write down today? Its high time to go to sleep. Tomorrow i will write down a daily amount of words in the morning. Probably it will help to plan the day. Its almost 10 o clock. How much time do I need to write down five hundred words? Probably half an hour, will see. Today I saw a nice photo of a classroom of one teacher. She had a nice way how to check the emotional health and mood. There was a tree with many leaves on different pieces of paper. And students should write down their name on one of the leaves and put it somewhere on the tree. if leaves are on high place closer to sun that means the mood of student is exellent, the downer the leaf is located the worse mood a student has. One more interesting thing was mantioned there. If a student does not want to talk about his or her emotional state of min and want to stay along, he or she can hide the part of the leaf with name. If i was one of the student in this class today i would put my leaf in the high place of the tree but hide my name. What about you, darling?
The story of Singapore really impressed me. Such a small country, such a small period of time, such a huge ambitions. Nobody belived that this country will have such a huge impact on the whole world nowadays. The same situation may happened with people too. The key of success of the country were intelligent people. The information is a key of success nowadays. that is pretty good motivation. Don’t you agree?
What day is it today? Tuesday. The fourth of Fabruary. I am a 21 year old woman. Healthy and in love, calm and orientated. I have an amazing family. The thing I like the most that we can argue really hard, shout but never leave never go away. My father and step father did not understand that. They gave up and left. Everything is for better.
Change the topic. I can not go for a run. Its too wet for that. And many people are sick now. So running now can be risky. I will continue in spring. However, exercises at home can be a good alternative. 30 minutes per day is enough. It is better to do In the morning. I want to go to sleep before ten and wake up at 6.
Tomorrow I have an alarm at 7. And will start writing my diploma.
Did you feel okay that we did not communicate a lot during the day or this is enough for you?
Wish you sweet dreams.
You know what? If you were a country, you would be Singapore. Just because you will have a great future. I belive in you, in me and in us.
See you In a new day which will bring us the most expensive currency – time. Let us spend it wisely. (04/02/2020)
James
Hello Diary. Hello Ksenia,
I am sitting on my bed with my laptop resting on my out stretched legs and with my fingers running a short marathon as I type this. Seconds before starting this, my gaze looked beyond the screen to see the long postcard of the Stonehenge, and with the sun setting behind the ancient rocks, a nice warm spread over my chest as I thought of how content I feel for the moment. Maybe it was the long, hot bath I had earlier that has relaxed me but this could also be the case after a productive day.
Thankfully, the day didn’t start off as busy as it always did but maybe it didn’t start off busy enough. My mind felt full and a little foggy as awoke from a strange but pleasant dream, switching off my alarm and noticing that there were no messages. Suspecting it was caused by the pending update on my phone, I downloaded and install the new version on my phone. Instantly, the message that were missing from the night appeared on my screen, although there weren’t a lot of messages. One from a family chat and the other from my dear darling.
The morning felt lighter, despite the foggy mind, and I decided to do a long stretch of my shoulders and spine. They felt like ancient stones that haven’t moved in a long time, but after half a hour of stretching, they felt more like parts of my body again.
At breakfast, my grandma had arrived with my mum. Well, arrived I mean, my grandma went straight to the massage chair in the corner and went into a meditative silence, occasionally surfacing to hum along with the machine. She can be hard of hearing at times but I believe that she speaks a different accent of Cantonese than we do in the family, so occasionally, we all have to guess what she meant!
After a brief goodbye, my grandma and mum went out of the house, leaving me with the washing up and as I did the cleaning, I listened intently to Harry Potter.
In the afternoon, or just after noon, I finally began by reviewing, in preparation of the exams next month. Halfway through, I had a break a though how it would be nice to finish everything in a year. Why not go as fast as one can? And so, as quickly as the thought came, I sent an email to the organisers of this course to ask about sending ahead the next materials to be studied. Of course, I only hoped they would reply with a happy yes but the people who have sent emails back doesn’t seem to be all so happy in my emails… maybe they are having a busy time.
I also noticed that my darling dear has had a busy day too and compared to yesterday, we hadn’t spoken as often. I can feel very self-centred sometimes and I feel that this doesn’t very help because I really do like you and I don’t want to get in the way of us. However, after our video call, I felt better with you in my mind as I sit on my bed, imagining us talk/reading/writing/listening to Harry Potter in a routine like manner.
Lunch was of two large bowls of noodle soup, which nearly made me burst and dinner was just some toast and a cup of tea.
I am grateful for a smooth day for my body to recover but I can do with some exercise. I am grateful for a comfortable chair and study room, for food, and for you my darling, grateful you came into my dream to help me buy those museum tickets because I really had no idea what the lady behind the counter was saying! It’s a shame I couldn’t read what you had written as I couldn’t sign in with your phone confirmation and I didn’t want to wake you up just for that. So here it is in a document, ready for you 😊. Goodnight my darling kiss (04/02/2020)



Ksenia
My dear darling
Today has gone as there was no day at all. I did not notice it, even though I could say that was busy today. The evening of the day is very calming but again late. I hope that from the next week when lessons in uni will start I will go to sleep and wake up early. I woke up today with such a nice dream of us together. It’s probably because you’ve been dreaming about me too. You are my darling you are my world. I appreciate all the good things you’re doing for me. You make me feel beautiful, needed, and cared about, even from thousands of miles away. I wish I could give you the same feeling to you. Please let me learn how to do it for you. Yesterday, more exactly today, you gave me a good lesson: find time for beloved every day. But the thing is that your love gives me such a huge motivation to grow, to study and to improve. Distance is just a test to see how true a couple’s love is—and ours is as true as it gets. You are never alone darling as well as I am with you.
I was studying, cleaning, cooking, having lessons today. I enjoy using my laptop. It has a nice acoustic. was listening for Blue October, David Bowie and piano music with fireplace from youtube. I really enjoy stretching but it turns out I am so bad at it right now.
Tomorrow Julia and I will have a call and we will decide when we should buy train tickets and we also will have a look on different apartments. It is high time to do it. I am happy you have already bought tickets. You will definitely love this city. It is so familiar with European architecture. There are several places where we will have a stroll near a river. And I hope we will visit orthodox church, if you do not mind. There is one church where my Patron Saint used to live. I will tell you her story there. The one thing I really like about orthodox, it is full of people’s stories, I am sure you will love them, they are full of kindness, openness and honesty.
Tomorrow I have 3 lessons in the evening, from 6 pm till 9 pm. Any other time I am ready for you my darling.
See you tomorrow my James. Like and choose you. (05/02/2020)
James
Hello Diary. Hello Ksenia,
I like and choose you Ksenia. There is no one else in the world that makes me smile and happy as you do. You also motivate me to becoming a better person and for me to not see the love you send me is my mistake of being blind to it. The more I think about the other day, the more normal it seems and that nothing a actually gone wrong, (maybe there was another fact that I hadn’t left the house 😮 ) I now sit in worry that you are worried about not being the best girlfriend, but in my soul, I know that you can easily win the ‘best girlfriend in the world’ trophy! Maybe I am just getting use to the distance again.
Work was quiet today, there weren’t that many customers. Maybe it was to do with the virus, or the fact that this time of the year is always quiet. Who knows! Things were done at a slower pace than usual and maybe that was a mistake because seeing this, my mum left me on my own to do the daily task and I ended up dancing a Waltz around the restaurant, right up to the time I called you. It was a rather fast Waltz too!
I would love to learn a dance with you, maybe hip-hop breakdancing? (hint hint 😉 ) or maybe waltz and the cha-cha-cha are a better substitute 😊 We can dance on an embankment with live music, bathed in moon light. Dancing the Sumba in the winter and a Foxtrot in the summer. You can be wearing your favourite evening dress, and me, my favourite suit. As I write this, a gentle rhythm flows through my inner ear, boom-cha-cha, boom-cha-cha of both a classical Chopin piece mixed with the Russian drums and instruments. Can you hear them?
That is the sort of feeling I get when I think of us. Of how beautiful you are and not to forget how amazing!
I am grateful for food, a nice warm bed, your motivation, a car, and just you. I also noticed that I wrote a little less compared to last time but it seems that I’m more tired than usual, I hope you can forgive me my darling.
I treasure you and will call you as soon as I’m ready. Goodnight my darling dear! (05/02/2020)
Ksenia
Hi darling. It is a pleasure for me to see this site you have made for us, it looks so gentle and all these words definitely can warm our hearts during cold winters. Today was fifty fifty day. I did my diploma, met Alica, did a little bit of shopping. It is extremely hard to write for me right now. Do not have proper words, I do not like myself for this. I am greatful for exercises, snowy weather, health and love. see you tomorrow darling. Sorry for writing as much, you can bite me ones for this ^_^ (06.02.2020)
James
Hello Diary. Hello Ksenia,
Writing what you think can turn out to be pretty hard actually but at the same time it can be fun. Another thing I have noticed is that, writing this in the night, right before going to bed has a sort of quietness and peacefulness that is not always found during the day. It’s like having a big spotlight shining inside your head, only the task in hand is done and everything else around it get enveloped in darkness. I supposed that the point of this is to get rid of the extra thoughts in our head but I feel that I haven’t done much today and my head isn’t so full to begin with. I might have to leave a short note today. I hope that is okay darling, I’m also finding it hard to make the words flow in my head today. But I will try again.
Today, the twins came and I was holding the ‘older’ sister for a little while as the other sister slept like a baby on the sofa. I gave her the grand tour of the house; the living room, the bedrooms, the stairs, and the kitchen. She looked like she paid attention but I’d supposed that being so small she hasn’t got much choice.. yet 😊. They are both very small and I love them already, not because they are small but because as I was holding them in my arm and I sat on my bed, I can feel the feeling that I will have a little child of my own one day, and I know that I will do anything to protect him/her as they grew up to be wonderful people. But, I knew a couple things were certain, that my own baby will not be in this room but my own home, and secondly, I will have a very special person sitting next to me to share every moment of their growth.
I feel the momentum starting in the depth of my soul where I will stop being a dreamer and idealist, and start being a doer and a realist. I will stop dreaming and start doing.
Today, I am grateful for my family, for hot food, for a sunny day, for a warm home, and for the internet. I am grateful I can use the internet to see you how ever often we would like to see each other (so far, it’s everyday 😉) and I also miss you. But I know this feeling will be temporary and we will soon enough be again in each other’s arms. And very likely, holding each other for a long long long long time, long time to come 😊 If you are reading this in the morning my darling, have a wonderful day! I am always here for you my sweetheart and good morning 😊! (06/02/2020)
Ksenia
Hello Diary. Hello James,
Good morning, even if writing in the evening gives us several minutes to calm down and make conclusions about the day, it probably is the reason why we sometimes have such late nights. Your yesterday’s diary page is full of love and men’s strength and I can surely say it is written by a real man, a real gentleman. We were talking a lot about birth giving and it also gives me a nice feeling that one day I will be mother for someone special. Today in a morning before breakfast I took a book with poems of one soviet poetess. She had a difficult life, but her poems are full of sunshine and willing to live. She started to write poems as a teenager and she published her first book being my age. The interesting thing that her early works has a topic of motherhood and childhood. She was willing to give her love to a somebody. But she could not do it for medical reasons. Every one reaches the period in their life when they understand that the meaning of life (one of millions) is to give way to a new generation. As long as our children and family remember us we are alive. That ideas are in her poems, the interesting thing that all of this is written beyond the lines and I did not get this idea several years ago when I was reading them for the first time. Sorry Diary, sorry James that I did not write a lot yesterday. There are days when I do not to talk a lot and my soul is willing to hide in a «shell». That happens sometimes. The reason why I do this probably came from childhood when I was sitting along in my room and did not communicate a lot with other people for weeks, the worst thing was that I liked it. Being a teenager I tried to become more sociable, and I changed a lot. But anyway there are moments when I am itching to stay alone. There is nobody’s fault and please do not blame yourself or myself for this. I still like and appreciate you. It is not the first time we were talking about it. Your love language is time. And you have all the grounds to be loved. Do not be angry on me for paying you not enough attention. Seeing you only on the screen does not let me express all my love to you and that makes me angry. It is like only a half of love, of expressing it. The same irritation comes with only reading a half of book, eating a half of meal. There is a feeling of missing another half. When we are together I feel myself complete and feel a complete love. I wish us to find a balance and a feeling of complex love being online. Have a good day! (07/02/2020)
James
Hello Diary. Hello Ksenia,
After a car journey, sitting in my brother’s car as he drove, I got motion sickness and feel a light headache. I will be fine after some sleep so I’m afraid I’ll have to keep this short!
Today had been an okay day. It wasn’t busy at all and so not good for business. We all know that the virus has something to do with this and it was pleasant to hear that we (my family and I) were not the only ones who think that this is a very silly way to respond to the virus. A couple of customers came in and at once saw that we were not busy at all and blame it on people’s fear of the virus. “How can people be so stupid!” was one of the customer’s response and I had to give a little laugh once he took his food and left. I don’t know why I laughed but maybe I agree with him a little. I suppose that as the virus scares more and more people, there will be an increase in blame toward the Chinese community and racism will increase on the streets. The fact is that there is no reason whatsoever for racism and discrimination. However, I can understand the fear and anger in the people who have no idea and no control of things like diseases. Too many films have been made talking about the end of the world due to either climate change, or a virus, or even our own bombs. There is no wonder there is so much fear! And on top of that, fake news is just as true as truthful news, especially on social media. So, how to go about in such a messy world?
To answer that, I am reminded of someone who got annoyed with people who won’t have their own views and opinions on topics and also, people who don’t think for themselves. I think it’s very cute (that’s you by the way 😉) and I seriously agree with you. To get around the fake news, the conspiracy theories, and generally crazy people one must have their own opinion and also the skill to critique information that one receives. And at the same time, to develop a strong backbone to withstand the flying comments from petty people.
Please don’t think I’m angry or emotional because of these people, on the contrary! This has been on my mind for the whole day and now is the perfect time to unload.
I am grateful for work, a warm jacket, internet, a warm bed, and grateful for you my darling, seeing and speaking with you really brightens up my day. Goodnight-morning, have a wonderful day if you are reading this in the morning 😊 (08/02/2020)
Ksenia
Hello Diary. Hello James,I am sorry you and your family feel this pressure right now. People are really silly, please do not be angry on them for that. I read an article about French born Chinese, who have created a tag #iamnotvirus and have published hundreds of post where they describe situations where they were faced racism. People are igroring them, going out of busses if they are in, pushing them out of cafes and arestaurants and so on. I think it is ridiculous. It is the behavior of barbarians, but not modern people. Hope these dumb conversations about coronovirus will disappear as quickly as they appeared. As for the virus itself, doctors have already found medicine and there are hundreds of recovered people.
I am here for you sweetheart. As I know you are for me.My day is going well thank you. We woke up early, went to church and were there several hours. It was a real test of patience. Then we went to a graveyard and then went to the restaurant I mentioned before. Everything went very smooth. And a nice thing that a lot of members of our family were there (11 people all in all) that number is much bigger comparing with other days.
I plan to be on a diet, will try not to eat meat, diary and bread for some time. The book How to die young in old age has made a huge impression on me.
Today I have 5 lessons, will start in 20 minutes and I will be free in your break my sweetheart.
Like and chose youIf you read this after work, so it is probably around 12 o’clock already. Remember that having late nights is bad for your health. Good night and take care of yourself! (08/02/2020)
James
Hello Diary. Hello Ksenia,
Today has been a better day. There are more customers but the view seems to be that there are only the regular customers.
I agree with you, people like these are not the people of the modern world, only like cave men. If only everyone had a second to think about what they had said! It might change the world into a very different one!
Any hoots, today had gone smoothly, and it was nice to catch up with family again. There was a baby in the restaurant and she’ll always a bundle of endless joy!
I understand my dear. My days as a kid were also just days spent alone in a room and so, I have those moments I want to be left alone. On the other hand, when there was someone there I can end up looking very needy! There is a fine line and I want to know if I have crossed it with you but I feel like I’ve improved a little ;P.
Thinking about the future again but on a ‘bigger than one man’ sort of scale, where energy industry has almost completely changed and renewable energy is main source of electricity. How will this change the city’s infrastructure? What will need to change? What will change? I will say that I do not have the answers but I think these are really interesting questions!
I am grateful for a family, it was nice to catch up and talk about electricity with one of them!, I’m grateful for my mum, who made breakfasts 😊, I’m grateful for water, it’s very refreshing at the end of a day! And I’m grateful to have the chance to see such a beautiful and confident women everyday during my breaks (you also do made my day shine brighter! ) I will have a shorter break today (Sunday, from 3pm-5pm) unfortunately but I’ll be ready for a short call 😊 I hope you slept well and that your day is going smoooothly! See you soon my lovely ❤ (08/02/2020)
Ksenia
Dear Diary, dear James
The day is about to end. It was a busy one. I am grateful for being busy, that means people need me. It seems you have had an interesting day too. Full of driving and raining weather. There is nothing wrong about it. Typically, in classical literature you may notice a thing, probably I have already told you about it, that the weather plays an important role in the story, it is one of main characters, which can predict what happened next. Rainy weather is a symbol of smooth sadness or moment of nearest change. That is not bad actually J
Talking about my previous sadness and not willing to communicate a lote, this mood has completely disappeared with flooding of home works and lessons.
I really like your thoughts about energy industry. Nobody knows (or probably somebody knows J) the answers to the questions you have asked. But I am pretty sure that our generation will see a huge step ahead in many vitial areas of people’s lives. The electricity and computerization is about to be every everywhere: from teaching to medicine. But as for me I am a little bit disappointed that the development of film industry still has bigger investments comparing with space exploring and rocket building (I am not talking about Elon Mask, but about governmental programs).
I am happy that I have finally ordered our train tickets to Saint Petersburg and have booked our room. It will be small and we will have hosters next door, but the location of this place is lovely, it is centre and next to river side. I can already imagine us walking or even walking there together.
You are my soulmate, and I do feel you nearby. Thank you for your smile, good mood and kindness. I do appreciate this in you.
Tomorrow I will start my week test version of diet. Am excited. If everything will go smooth, I will become a version of vegan. Will see, anyway, our body is a place for experiments (in a good way)).
If you are reading this at a late night, I am asking the wind to send you my kiss. Even if we are far away, we can see the same sun and the same moon and probably can feel the same wind. Sounds romantically, do not you feel so?
Good night Sweety, take care of yourself. (09/02/2020)
James
Hello Diary. Hello Ksenia,
Writing this in the middle of the day is a little different. But I can feel that it can get my brain working in a more productive manner😊. The morning started like any other morning, a late start to the day with the sun shining brightly through the windows. A strange dream that I cannot remember lingers in my mind and on my eye lids. And the first thing I reach for is my phone.
The first part of the day just consists of going to the bank, just to get out of the house! The bank is in the town that we went to to do your shopping and the thoughts of the discrimination of my Chinese appearance slowly crept to the front of my mind as I drove out of my drive. Of course, this was not the case, the town centre has a very nice set of people and the thoughts I had were just my paranoia.
There hadn’t been much to think about since yesterday as the restaurant was still quiet in contrast to the storm outside, raging a war with the concrete and bricks. Although the restaurant was quiet, the phone did not stop ringing and the take away side still felt very busy!
Now tracing back to the early afternoon of Sunday, my cousin had another baby on the way and that afternoon they were to find out that they had another baby girl! There were about 100 people with 40 children squeezed in a church close to my home and to say it was full of people was an understatement! Any hoot, seeing uncles that I rarely see is a great! And it’s always nice to see family.
Now in reflection, I will stick to writing these entries in the evening where I can see and clearer end to a day of thoughts to the next!
In the night, I felt a little worried that you were upset but I knew that you are a strong and an amazing women, but I still wanted to be there with you and help you the best I can!
Thank you for you my lovely<3
I am grateful for a warm jacket to block the wind, a car for convivence, and for you, the photo you uploaded here is very lovely and seeing it this morning even made my heart pump a smile. I will write an additional one tonight. See you soon lovely 😊
(09/02/2020)
