Week 8

James 
Hello Diary. Hello Ksusha,
Today was a slightly strange day. My parents and my uncle and auntie went to the restaurant. There is a real hollowness in the quiet and empty spaces that use to be filled with bright lights, us waiters running around, and of course, the customers that warmed up the emptiness with their body heat.
The five of use began to clean the kitchen and prepare the remaining food to bring home and to share among the rest of the family. Noodles were cooked, pots and pans were washed, the floor was mopped and the door has been locked. We have chosen to close today. I’m not sure what will happen in the future, it sounds too uncertain, too unfamiliar but I know one thing is sure, family will always be one. Closing our doors can always seem to be a sad action, a beginning of an end but, I’d like to think of this as the end of the beginning!
The day ended a lot earlier than expected but we can treat this as a treat!
I’m happy to have spent the evening with you, I do feel relaxed and felt we were catching up on the days we missed where we couldn’t see each other.
I remember feeling quiet unexpectedly tired and had a very strange dream but I look forward to seeing you tomorrow 😊
(23.03.20)

Ksenia
Hello James, Hello Diary,
Today was a good day, full of cleaning, good lessons and self-studying. The university where I plan to have my master degree has published several free online video courses about teaching on its website, and of course I am happy to watch them. the evening was very smooth, we were watching a movie called Patrick. This movie has been filmed in London and many places there are familiar. That is an incredible feeling. The main story is about a woman and a dog, and the main idea is that a dog is man’s best friend.
I really like our talks today, sorry if i said something wrong. Good night Darling.
Kiss (23.03.2020)

James
Hello Diary. Hello Ksusha,
Day 1 of the lockdown. My mum and I decided to go for a walk and to enjoy the sunshine! We walked to my brother’s house and then to the closed town centre/train station. In total it was a 1 hour walk and it felt wonderful to use my legs like that again!
When we came back, I had lunch and had a nice call from a beautiful and amazing girl (you of course 😉).
The rest of the afternoon was spent planning for the next couple of day where I wanted to see how effectively I can study and review everything I have learnt so far and my goal is to learn and know the material even better than before 😊
I think that it’s so amazing that you enter into competitions! I think and believe you truly are an amazing person! And I’m also so excited for you for your plan for your future! 😊 I look forward to seeing you darling 😉
(24.03.20)

Jamesic
Hello Diary. Hello Ksusha,
My day started with the low talking coming from my neighbours. Their bedroom is directly next to mine. The sun shines through the binds and my arms, leg, and hair are all over the place. I dreamt of a strange dream. That there was a people eating alien in the attic of this house. If you were to go near the holes it has created, one of it’s tentacles will come down as fast as a frog’s tongue and you’ll be in it’s mouth before you can scream. In the dream, I was petrified! I was so careful of walking around the sides of those holes and when I saw it, my stomach dropped. This alien had eaten other people but it didn’t eat me or maybe I may sure that it wouldn’t eat me! It’s amazing how real some dreams can feel!
I also had woken 30 mins later than I had planned. I set the wrong alarm! But it’s okay, I think I would have stilled waited at the pharmacy to get my mum’s medication if I were to go there 30 minutes before opening time.
My morning was fairly busy, I went to wait in a que at the pharmacy, then went to buy some milk and pain killers for my auntie. They will be in self-isolation for another 2 weeks! So we have to help them as much as we can.
After getting the medicine, I went to pick up my delivery. There was some confusion to why I did not have a pick-up code but it turned out that the people working there yesterday did not scan the package, making me walk back and forth from the parcel shop and my home. I didn’t mind this as I had set aside enough time, planning for things like this.
My mum and I then went on a 4-hour walk. We started around 10am and finished at 1pm, in time for lunch! We walked to a further town centre (3 miles away) and walked back but on the way, picking up some fruits and some more cleaning products. I had a bag but I hadn’t expected to have carried so much today!
Lunch was some fried noodles and then had a call from a wonderful person 😉.
In the study breaks, I’m looking into what I can look at with the telescope and there is so much to learn. I’m so glad I treated myself to this. 😊 I keep imagining that the two of us are on the back of this truck in the fields somewhere, looking up into the night sky, enjoying each other’s company and a flask of good coffee. I’m also imagining us doing special things together, to end the night in a wonderful way 😉
I look forward to seeing you darling 😊 oh, did I mention how beautiful you looked today 😉
Love from,
Your Jamesic
(25.03.20)

Ksenia
Hello Diary, hello James,
Today I spent more than 8 hours on the way to and back my new appartment, sometimes it was difficult to focus on doing something. But I do thing that was worth it. When you see the surroundings and the appartment itself, im sure you’ll like it. The whole day i felt this nice feeling of gratfulness of having it in your own property. Anyway, it is a first step out of thousands ahead. Thank you for being nearby. (25.03.2020)

Jamesic
Hello Diary. Hello Ksusha,
I must have been feeling very not well today. After a morning of studying a little, I had a fairly early lunch with my parents before having a call with you. I enjoyed hearing about your day 😊
Then I had a nap in the afternoon. I was only supposed to nap for 20 minutes but I think I ended up sleeping for 1h 30mins!
I then study a little bit more before having a call with you again! I tried to sleep at around 8:45pm but when I did, I saw how clear the night sky was and played around with my telescope. I saw that there was a helicopter flying around my area from some strange reason and I felt like it knew I was spying on it. After it finally flew away, I tried to take a picture of the stars for you but it’s a lot harder that expected! But I won’t give up on trying to shot the stars for you 😉
Love, your Jamesic
(26.03.20)

Ksenia
Hello Diary,Hello James,
The day was very busy with studying for me. As long as we have been studying online, our professors habe started to give huge amount of homework. The reason why they do this may be just to keep us busy and not let us go out. All days are kinda the same: studying, cleaning, working. I wanna make my days a little bit brighter and take my guitar and continue lessons ^_^
see you soon, darling :3 (26.03.2020)

Jamesic
Hello Diary. Hello Ksusha,
Today and yesterday felt like a blur and being at home feels like I’ve been at home for more than a month! But at the same time, one hour. I’m pretty sure my body is fighting the virus today even though I feel okay. My runny nose and itchy eyes have stayed the same today and in addition, I have noticed how brittle my nails are. It’s an important sign for me, and it might explain the itchy eyes! (I will explain this logic 😉)
Today, my study was a bit more successful 😊 I managed to do all the task I set for myself and in addition to that, I was able to see an amazing woman twice in one day (you are that amazing woman darling 😉
The weather has been amazing these past few days, it is a slight shame that I can’t go outside to enjoy it! But I hope the evening sky will be clear this weekend, I can then take my telescope outside for a night play around with the sky. I imagine us being together when I do this, exploring space together. I like and choose you darling 😊
Love, your Jamesic
(27.03.20)

Ksenia
Hello Diary, Hello James,
The day started with the observing online guitar playing schools. I found several and registrated for free fisrt lesson in all of them! I enjoy our conversation and I hope that you like it too. You are amazing studying so hard, you are my hero!
(27.03.2020)

Jamesic
Hello Diary. Hello Ksusha,
I woke up coughing. I think I definitely have caught the virus but I will not let it win!
My dreams were a real show this morning. After waking up at 4am, I went back to sleep and was surprised to the emotions and events that happened in my mind. Is this my body’s way of processing the days of intensive studying? Who knows! Anyways, the dreams were;
I dreamt that I was held captive in this store house type place. I felt emotional when I wanted a particular Chinese dish but it wasn’t made for me. Then all of a sudden, I was saved by my family and we took control of the storehouse. Going upstairs, I held an ostrich egg and it was ready to hatch. I placed it into the bathtub and poured warm water over it. It hatched into a small chick and I quickly took it to my mum who was about to tell me what to do with the chick before I woke up.
The day went like a haze, I’m not sure what happened to the time!
I enjoyed our conversation darling and I really like and choose you ❤
Love, Your Jamesic
(28.03.20)

Ksenia
Hello Diary, Hello James,
While reading your previous words of the days, I felt the love from you, darling. I feel us together sharing moments of our lives.
As for the previous day, my morning was full of translating, and in the afternoon and evening I had lessons including an online one. After that, I went to the shops to buy some milk and bread. The weather was so amazing, and I thought about how amazing it could be to have a walk with somebody. Be careful what you wish for – they tend to come true 🙂 I met my classmate and her boyfriend on the way back from shops. It was a nice surprise, we had a pleasant walk for about an hour and a half, talking about different things and enjoying the spring 🙂 It seems that they enjoy my company too and we decided to have a walk tomorrow.
Changing the topic, I like the way you plan your day, you are so mature in seeing time as a limited resource. I am not at that stage yet, but you are a motivation for me to grow. Thank you for you, my darling. See you tomorrow.
Love,
your Ksu (28.03.2020)

Jamesic
Hello Diary. Hello Ksusha,
Today, my cough has improved but my headache has gotten worse. It can be hard to focus on certain things but I am taking every step slowly and feel like this cough is nearly gone 😊
The milk and honey bread did wonders for the cough! 😊 Thank you, sweetheart, ❤
The dream I had was about doing an electricity job for my school tutor! It was a very strange moment. The job was to help my tutor to put in a new socket into their new home but the place we will need to get the power from is downstairs in the main place where the electricity comes in. When I went down stairs I unexpectedly found that I was in the a classroom and we had to somehow bring new cables upstairs. The next part got very confusing, I’m not sure what exactly happened! I woke up thinking I was still at the apartment! It took me a little bit of time to remember where I was but it came in the end 😉
You are good for me darling, I am so grateful you are by my side! I’m sorry if I cannot express or show these feelings, but I’m really grateful for you!
Love, Your Jamesic
(29.03.20)

Ksenia
Hello James, Hello Diary,
I am so happy that you learn Russian, seeing that makes my heart melts. You treat me so nice, gentle and careful. I feel your warmth and love, and I am here for you too, sweetheart. What can I do to make you feel loved? You deserve the best. The annoying feeling that I am not good enough for you is coming back. It should be blocked again.
Thank you for us, see you tomorrow ^_^ (29.03.2020)

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